I want to write a poem, But I don’t know where to start. Life before you, life without you, Or when it fell apart. You’ve stolen oh so much from me. My worth, my heart, my time. You’ve stolen my identity, It’s like I’ve lost my mind. I used to be so brave […]
When Recovery Gets Boring
“I’m bored.” That’s what I told my therapist. “What’s boring?” she replied. “Recovery. Recovery is boring.” And it’s true. When I was in the throws of my illness, I was enveloped with insanity. My mind was a battleground. And there’s nothing boring about a war zone. There’s always something going on. A bullet to dodge, […]
Why I’m #donewithdieting
Project HEAL has started a #donewithdieting campaign and it’s got me thinking. I AM done with dieting. But why? And how? I mean it’s one thing to say it, but it’s another thing to back it up. So it’s time I stepped up to the plate and did a little explaining. To put it simply, […]
My Deep Dark Secret
“I want to write but I have nothing to write about,” I said to my mom. “Brittany, you always have something to write about,” she replies. Hmm. What to write about. I start a few rough drafts but nothing really feels right. It’s just not working for me. “Why not?” I think to myself. Because […]
Just Not Today
I’m going to be honest with you. I’ve been struggling. When I was experiencing that intense anxiety a few weeks ago, I had a hard time eating. My stomach was a mess. Well my anxiety is better, but I guess I got into some bad habits. Eating full meals is a challenge again. And it’s […]
Branded
Motherhood does not come naturally to me. It is something I have to work at every day. It takes a conscious effort. Some days Skylar watches way too much TV. And some days the most I can bring myself to do is read a bedtime story. I consider playing a game a small victory and […]
#sorrynotsorry
Uncomfortable. That’s how I’ve felt since publishing my previous post on social media. Uncomfortable. That’s how I believe I’ve made people feel. Uncomfortable. That’s why these things need to be said. My last post made me pretty vulnerable. So vulnerable that I waited almost a full week before publishing it on Facebook. I was afraid […]
20 Questions
I’ve been feeling restless. Again. I feel like I write about that a lot on this blog. Feeling unfulfilled. Not knowing what I’m doing with my life. Feeling directionless. Wandering without a purpose. Wanting something more. I was sitting in my psychiatrist’s office the other day feeling slightly annoyed with all the stupid questions he […]