Hope? To hell with hope. There is no hope. Anger. That’s all there is today. Once the tears have been shed, that is. Today is the kind of day that demands you watch every second tick by, just waiting until you can walk through your bedroom door, collapse, curl into a ball, and sob. Uncontrollably […]
Yesterday Sucked. But Today I Feel Stronger.
I’m not going to say that Monday was the worst day of my life, because I know that’s both untrue and overly dramatic. That being said, it still sucked. A lot. I love my job, but work was rough. The last week or so has been pretty bumpy; nothing is ever easy. Mary says that’s […]
My “Last Chance”
I’ve talked about it before, but I’m going to talk about it again. Because apparently it’s a big part of my life. You can’t just ignore these things. I’m 4 weeks post-op from hip surgery #7. When people see me on crutches, they’re all like “Wow, you’re a pro!” Thanks. I’ve had a lot of […]
Like A Tree
Last week was National Eating Disorder Awareness Week. For those of you who are faithful followers of this blog, you might have noticed that I did not publish a post last week. Which might seem strange, given that I am a vocal advocate for mental health, eating disorders, and recovery as a whole. But there […]
My Body Screams
My body screams at me. I’m certain it begins as a whisper. Every time it warns me. And I ignore it. Every time. I’m angry now. At my body. At myself. I feel betrayed. My back gave out on me last weekend and by Tuesday I was desperate. I made the call and the long […]
Why Crutches Still Stand By My Mirror
It’s been 2 months since I’ve needed them, but my crutches still stand by the full-length mirror in my bedroom. My daughter pointed them out to me the other day and asked why they were still there. I didn’t have a very good answer for that one. It wasn’t until later that I discovered there […]
“Summer Suits You”
For most people, writer’s block comes when they can’t think of anything to say. I am not most people. I experience writer’s block most frequently when I have a lot to say. There are so many ideas. There is so much emotion. The passion is overwhelming. I don’t even know where or how to start. […]
5 Things You Never Want to Hear From Your ER Staff
Last Friday I spent the evening in the emergency room. Always a pleasant experience. As many of you already know, I recently had my 6th hip surgery. They removed all of my hardware (except that stray screw if you recall) and I’ve been off of crutches for about 3 weeks. Well last Friday I woke […]