Hope? To hell with hope. There is no hope. Anger. That’s all there is today. Once the tears have been shed, that is. Today is the kind of day that demands you watch every second tick by, just waiting until you can walk through your bedroom door, collapse, curl into a ball, and sob. Uncontrollably […]
Yesterday Sucked. But Today I Feel Stronger.
I’m not going to say that Monday was the worst day of my life, because I know that’s both untrue and overly dramatic. That being said, it still sucked. A lot. I love my job, but work was rough. The last week or so has been pretty bumpy; nothing is ever easy. Mary says that’s […]
My “Last Chance”
I’ve talked about it before, but I’m going to talk about it again. Because apparently it’s a big part of my life. You can’t just ignore these things. I’m 4 weeks post-op from hip surgery #7. When people see me on crutches, they’re all like “Wow, you’re a pro!” Thanks. I’ve had a lot of […]
Like A Tree
Last week was National Eating Disorder Awareness Week. For those of you who are faithful followers of this blog, you might have noticed that I did not publish a post last week. Which might seem strange, given that I am a vocal advocate for mental health, eating disorders, and recovery as a whole. But there […]
If Only You Could See
It’s funny how I can go a whole day receiving no texts, Facebook messages, or phone calls…then get bombarded when I sit down to paint my nails. I mean giving yourself a manicure is hard enough, people. Try doing so while engaging in 3 conversations at once…all while watching a movie. It takes talent. But […]
Tomorrow’s Great Story
I should have stopped at 2. Surgeries, that is. 2 hip surgeries per saga. 3 is just too many. I’m not going to blame my relapse on my hip injury. Actually, I might. I think I’m entitled to that. I first injured my hip exactly 10 years ago. I had 3 surgeries over the course […]
The Not-So-Christmas Spirit
“I feel like I’m out of control. I have no way of channeling my emotions,” I said. “I was hoping your blog would help you do that,” replied my mother. “I can’t write about this. Not really. I have called myself The Realistic Optimist, but I am anything but optimistic right now. I’m drowning in darkness.” […]
Just Keep Showing Up
About a month ago, I was on the phone with a friend who I admire a great deal. Actually, I must say that I admire all of my friends in one way or another. Whether it’s for their strength, character, vulnerability, or sense of humor, each of my friends has at least one quality that […]