“I’m bored.” That’s what I told my therapist. “What’s boring?” she replied. “Recovery. Recovery is boring.” And it’s true. When I was in the throws of my illness, I was enveloped with insanity. My mind was a battleground. And there’s nothing boring about a war zone. There’s always something going on. A bullet to dodge, […]
To Hell With Hope
Hope? To hell with hope. There is no hope. Anger. That’s all there is today. Once the tears have been shed, that is. Today is the kind of day that demands you watch every second tick by, just waiting until you can walk through your bedroom door, collapse, curl into a ball, and sob. Uncontrollably […]
When Frustration Gives Way to Blessings
I’ve been frustrated. Beyond frustrated at times. In the middle of the summer I decided to start taking my blog more seriously and switch to self-hosted WordPress. At the time I was using Squarespace for design and hosting; I had even purchased a custom domain name. I put a lot of time and energy into […]
A Mother & Her Uppercase R
I knew there would be moments that I’d feel like the worst parent in the world. That there would be times I’d look back and wish there was something I had or hadn’t done. That I would say something and instantaneously feel like a complete idiot. I knew it, but that doesn’t mean I was […]
“Oh, Ryeli!”
Sometimes I’m just going about my normal day and I’m suddenly knocked off my feet by a seemingly obvious revelation. It’s usually one of those things I know that I know, yet I instantaneously find myself looking at it with a fresh perspective. It’s startling and it usually makes me laugh at first. Then I […]