I want to write a poem,
But I don’t know where to start.
Life before you, life without you,
Or when it fell apart.
You’ve stolen oh so much from me.
My worth, my heart, my time.
You’ve stolen my identity,
It’s like I’ve lost my mind.
I used to be so brave and strong,
The smartest of the smart.
My future was bright and hopeful,
But you made it fall apart.
You swept in and promised me the world,
You told me we could win.
My problems, they could disappear,
If only I’d let you in.
So I did, I welcomed you with open arms.
I offered you my life.
At first you were my friend and pal
You helped me live my life.
But slowly you destroyed my soul.
You were a parasite.
You stole my joy, my hope, my goals
You took away my fight.
My future–you erased it all.
I was left with nothing but you.
You, who lied and spun the truth,
It’s like you already knew.
Knew that I was left with nothing.
That you had won the war.
That I was no longer what I had been.
That I was helpless on the floor.
But was I helpless? Was I gone?
Had you really won the fight?
Or was I resting while you reigned,
Gathering my might.
I wasn’t going to let you win,
And neither was my team;
My family, friends, and loved ones, too
We all were battling.
I’m stronger than you think I am.
I am a warrior.
I’ll fight for my life, if that’s what it takes.
For all of this and more.
You stole it all, but that’s ok.
I can take it back.
It’s not the same, it will not be
I know that it’s a fact.
But I can make something new
Out of the old that you destroyed.
It can be more beautiful
Than the evil you employed.
My future can be bright again.
I can reclaim my life.
Your presence has no business here.
You’ve caused me too much strife.
No longer will you rule my world.
You’re not victorious.
It’s time you leave, it’s time you go
You really, really, must.
I want to feel the sunshine
Upon my glowing face.
I want to know what joy feels like.
True love I want to taste.
You promised me and told me lies
That you could not fulfill.
I’m going to say goodbye to you.
Go flee beyond that hill.
I’m finally free, you’ll only be
A story from my past.
You’ve made me who I am today,
You played a role in the cast.
You were the star for far to long,
But now it’s time to leave.
This story’s mine, I’ll take it back
I finally believe.
That life is good and happiness
Can actually exist.
That I deserve these things and more.
That I can taste the bliss.
That am more than worthy
Of all that life can bring.
That you do not define.
That I finally can sing.
So sing I shall, apart from you.
I’ll dance and wave my arms.
For I am free from you today
You no longer bring me harm.
You’re banished from my life, I say.
For now, forever more.
It’s my turn now, so watch your back
I’m going to slam the door.
This life is mine, it’s beautiful
There’s so much joy in store.
I’m going to feel it all around.
All of this and more!
Wrae says
This is such a great poem!
Brittany says
Thanks! So glad to have you stop by :)
Aunt Jeannie says
Brittany – You are such a beautiful woman…..both inside and out! You have shown such strength and determination.in overcoming adversity………..and your willingness to share your thoughts and feelings openly in a beautiful poem is truly amazing. I am so very proud of you. Love you lots.
Brittany says
Thank you, Aunt Jeannie! I’m glad you stopped by the blog for a few minutes. Love you, too :)
Pop pop says
Your beautiful poem has made my day. I am so happy for you. I love you Brittany. I always have, and always will.
Love, Pop Pop
Mom says
Not Brittany-but Mommy-whenever I think of you and Brittany, I think of Teddy. I mourn for his loss, but rejoice that he was there, helping Brittany remember the God and family who loved her even when she thought she was completely alone. I praise God for the strength he gave her, and the blessings he put in her life-like such an amazing Grandfather who picked out the perfect Bear to be a comfort to her when we couldn’t be.
Brittany says
Awe, thanks Pop Pop! I’m glad to have you by visiting. Love you, too!
Gram says
Brittany you’re poem says so much about your battle. You are so very strong and I am so proud of you and happy for you. You truly are FREE!
Love you bunches.
Brittany says
Thank you so much. I’m only strong because I come from a family of strong women :) Love you, too!
Caitlin says
Brittany,
Such a great poem! As always you have a way with words. I’m so glad that you are able to see that you can take your life back. You’re right in that it won’t be the same but you are still worth so much and capable beyond imagining. You are loved!
Brittany says
Thanks, Caitlin! So are you :)
Your other Gram says
Your poem brought tears to my eyes. So happy to hear the strength in your commitment to slam the door. You are strong, intelligent, loving and beautiful, and you know we are in your corner. Love you so much.
Brittany says
Thanks so much for your love and support through everything. You’re the best! Love you, too :)
Aunt Judy says
Brittany, your poem speaks for the struggles all of us face in one area or another. We all fight battles,, some we win, some we continue to fight, not willing to fly a flag of surrender. We have all been broken in someway..a broken spirit, body, heart. We have looked at the pieces laying all around us and wondered how we will ever put it (our lives) back together again. My joy is that the Master is able to take those broken pieces and put them together in a beautiful way with a bond that makes them stronger than they were originally. You are being made more beautiful and stronger every day.
Brittany says
So well put, Aunt Judy. Very true. Thank you for your support!