Today was my second to last TMS treatment. And I don’t want to sound dramatic, but TMS has changed my life. What is TMS, you might be asking? Well. TMS stands for Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation. It is a treatment for depression in which they stimulate the mood regulation areas of the brain with magnetic pulses. […]
It’s weird to think…
Well folks, we’re 3 days out. That’s right. As long as my pre-op Covid test comes back negative, I go in for hip surgery on Wednesday. It will be at a surgical center in Reston, VA. I’m temporarily slated to be in the procedure room at noon, but things change constantly, so they wait until […]
linger
Well I did it. I asked for a vacation. A last minute vacation, at that. It was either “Give me 2 days of vacation” or “See ya in a month after a stint in the hospital.” Yeah, it was that bad. Last week was full of despair. Like deep despair. If you’d asked me why […]
Bananas
I am a wreck, folks. An absolute wreck. My anxiety is just out of control. My stomach is constantly nauseous. I can’t stop trembling. I’m having *more* trouble sleeping. I’m just a mess. I wasn’t going to write until Tuesday. Because I don’t want to catasrophize over something that turns out to be nothing. But […]
because maybe…
Anxiety. The kind that makes you want to stay in bed with the covers pulled over your head. Because maybe someone I love will fall and their life will change forever. Because maybe I’ll get in a car accident with my brand new car and have to buy a new one with no money left […]
Face Those Fears
By the time you read this I will have taken my first exam of the semester. It was supposed to be last week, but I was busy battling the flu, so this week it is. Here’s the funny thing. You know what I’m most anxious about? Not being anxious. I feel adequately prepared. Comfortable with […]