“Well aren’t you living on the edge?” says Dad. He means I’m drinking a cup of coffee in the afternoon. Maybe it will keep me up past 7:30 tonight. It certainly can’t hurt my sleeping pattern at this point. I’m exhausted. But that’s not why I’m writing today. Nope. I’m not going to complain today. […]
An Open Letter to My Psychiatrist
Dear Psychiatrist, It was an ordinary appointment. Nothing special at all. Until the end. When you said you had something to tell me. Then I got scared. Not because I didn’t know what was coming, but because I did. I knew what you were going to say before you said it. “I’ve been given a […]
Just Not Today
I’m going to be honest with you. I’ve been struggling. When I was experiencing that intense anxiety a few weeks ago, I had a hard time eating. My stomach was a mess. Well my anxiety is better, but I guess I got into some bad habits. Eating full meals is a challenge again. And it’s […]
Branded
Motherhood does not come naturally to me. It is something I have to work at every day. It takes a conscious effort. Some days Skylar watches way too much TV. And some days the most I can bring myself to do is read a bedtime story. I consider playing a game a small victory and […]
#sorrynotsorry
Uncomfortable. That’s how I’ve felt since publishing my previous post on social media. Uncomfortable. That’s how I believe I’ve made people feel. Uncomfortable. That’s why these things need to be said. My last post made me pretty vulnerable. So vulnerable that I waited almost a full week before publishing it on Facebook. I was afraid […]
20 Questions
I’ve been feeling restless. Again. I feel like I write about that a lot on this blog. Feeling unfulfilled. Not knowing what I’m doing with my life. Feeling directionless. Wandering without a purpose. Wanting something more. I was sitting in my psychiatrist’s office the other day feeling slightly annoyed with all the stupid questions he […]
From The Outside Looking In
Well two and a half weeks certainly flew by and I found myself back in my cubicle early Monday morning. I actually had a lot more peace than I thought I would about the whole thing. I have mixed feelings about whether the peace came from God or the combination of drugs I’m on. I figure […]
Put Some Money Where Your Mouth Is, Girl
Well as the title of this post pretty much explains…2016 didn’t give me a whole lot of time to start putting some money where my mouth is. I guess that’s the downside of staking your personal brand upon the principles of brutal honesty, transparency, and vulnerability. I’m told that’s what makes me unique and relatable. […]